Thoughts…oughts…blogs

It has been 4 days since my last paper and now I’m entering my 5^th day. Not much have been happening since then. I’ve only been out of my house’s front gate to go for the exams during the last few weeks and for the last few days…hmm…I think I only went out for a movie outing with my bro and when the Jabatan Kesihatan came to my house to fog at night. Haha…so much for the much awaited holidays. But at least I’m ready to rejoin society and I am slowly but surely taking steps to assimilate myself so as to not traumatize others and myself (bear in mind I haven’t been around people for some time and have been very much a recluse). The reason is, I’ve been couped up at home for so long. My days routine is usually wake up, have breakfast, read newspapers, study…then lunch, short nap, study…then dinner, watch the news, study….sleep, oh wait…freak out terribly and then sleep.

And because I don’t have a study room, I used my parents’ or my brother’s room because both have air con and is less noisy. Towards the end of the exams, my skin was really dry because of sitting too long in air-conditioned room and suffering from the lack of water which is purely my fault…but hey, I didn’t want to run to the toilet every half an hour…One day I tried drinking lots of water and it was a distraction. I was telling myself..’Ok, go to toilet after you’ve finished this page..hold it..’ and after that I rushed to toilet feeling like my bladders were going to burst ..a few times. There was a sense of relief of course..but don’t know whether it was from answering nature’s call or because I finished that page faster than I expected…hehe. Oh well.

Now I won’t elaborate much on the exams except to say it was…erm…ok I guess. Can’t say it was easy nor very tough..just that it was expected. Challenging questions and very limited time. But this time I was freaking out much more than the last 2 years. Almost felt like crying the night before…wait, I think I did before Evidence. Told myself that if you want to cry, cry now…not after you’ve done the paper. And hey, it felt good after that. At least I could study with less pent up emotions. I would like to say thank you so much to Lynnie, Sarita and Sammy(who picked up Sarita’s phone on that fateful night before Evidence) for their comforting words and attending to my late nights frustrations. Sorry gals for the torture I put you through. Really appreciate all you’ve done.

So since now I’m officially on holiday, I’m taking some time off to relax for a while before worrying about the things I want to do and of course work. It seems that if you want to work…it takes up all your time and leaves you with less time to take up any ‘learning’ activities. But if I want to join those activities, they’ll need money which I can only make if I work….argh, I could try to accommodate both but it’ll be too hectic…which defeats the purpose of a holiday. We’ll see…maybe I can work things out.

Well…will stop here now. Till I have something else I want to say…and not feeling lazy to type it out. Wishing all my friends who have just finished their exams a very Happy Holidays! And to those already working, Happy Working! Cheers people =)